When I was in junior high, I began to develop anxiety problems. I’d be convinced I had a horrible illness and no one could convince me otherwise. It was incredibly detrimental to myself and my family. I was given a prescription for prozac and it allowed me to function again. A few years a later, I began to develop OCD, which has continued to be an issue to this day. I still take prozac, although my dose is low. My symptoms are annoying and sometimes keep me from doing things I’d like to, but I’m still functional, can hold a job, go to school, and have a social life. It can be a battle sometimes though.

What Gaming Means To Me

I’ve been a gamer since I was a toddler, so gaming has always been a way for me to have fun and relieve stress. It’s difficult to name any one game has being particularly helpful. Anything that can give me something else to think about and keep my mind occupied helps. Streaming and speedrunning also help, in that they provide social interaction and a way to channel energy into something. It’s easier to ignore OCD when giving in to it would mean losing time on my run. Competitive games have a similar effect too.

Gaming provides a form of engagement that no other medium can match. I enjoy books and movies, but there’s not enough to keep my mind from obsessing. It’s also a very social medium, and I find being around other people can help break the mental cycle that OCD creates.


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Jennifer Hazel

I'm a psychiatry doctor and passionate gamer. I run a resource called prescriptionpixel.com - an interface between video games and mental health.
This is a space for gamers to safely share their feelings, access personalised resources, and seek help without judgement or stigma.